I know I have been delaying to write this journal for some time now, but I believe it is now time to express how I feel on some matters.  Don't worry guys, this isn't to chew anyone out.  It's something I am working on to make myself from screwing things up.

Artwork

I have a little bit more to say about my art, but I plan to make that a whole new section.

I guess you can say that I have picked up on inspiration.  I think it's a great thing, and I tested the waters one fine day and came out with a nice little piece of work.  I really want to thank the website I used to model what pose I wanted.  it's a nice little site that I plan to link on the pictures I base the poses from.  I am kinda focusing on getting anatomy right rather than the finer details like wrinkles in clothes so if you see that, don't worry about it.

Apart from the rainbow cat that I posted, I still have a pic or two that I have on my computer ready to be inked and colored.  Well, one's almost done, but I left my tablet pen at a friend's house and need to get it back LOL  XD;;

I also plan to draw more as soon as I look over my to do list and edit it a little bit~



SacAnime

So I was really debating to go this time, but I have decided I wanted to.  I was just overall nervous about going again.  There were a few things that happened and I guess I was... worried it was going to happen again?  It's really hard to explain really, but the good thing is that Jordan and I are planning accordingly and hopefully getting everything arranged to where we won't have much of a problem.  The tickets have been purchased and cosplay is already set into motion.  I just need to finishing buying everything and I will be set!

This time, I plan to dress as the following on the specific days:

Friday (Semi-Group Cosplay)~  Regular Show: Pops

Saturday (Group Cosplay)~  My Little Pony: Rarity

Sunday (Random Cosplay)~  Team Fortress 2: Pyro

To clarify, I usually cosplay with a rather large group of friends so when it says Semi-Group Cosplay, that means we have mostly everyone dressing up; Group Cosplay is with everyone dressing as the same kind of thing, and Random Cosplay is whatever anyone wants to do.  Some will be alone while others will be in pairs or threes.  I know I will be part of TF2, and so will my friend Conor.  Jordan, Near, and Reye will be Supernatural, but I don't know about the rest.

I'm sure you will be hearing more about this, but I can't say for sure lol



Art Request Clarifications

Now, I wanted to make this clear.  I am not pointing the finger and I am not running away from this at all.  I am merely warning you of something I feel the need to... run by everyone.

Look, I know I am not a big known artist on DA, and I might never will.  The likely hood that I will become known anywhere is slim.  I know that I do take requests for free because I feel that my art isn't good enough to be sold.  I appreciate you all pushing my confidence up to draw more.  I really do, but I know I am not trying so hard anymore to make a new piece of art often.  It's just a hobby, not my profession.  Now, onward to what I really want to say.

For those who have given me requests, I really appreciate it.  I have been... suffering as of late and it hurts me to draw sometimes because my A.D.D. gets me so bad sometimes.  I want to do everything in my will to draw that request you ask for, but I have one of these- sometimes even more- keep me from doing so:

~ I can't focus because of my A.D.D. is too bad and is making me think about everything but art

~ I do have times when I am depressed about something and it keeps me from drawing.  I instead listen to music and cry my eyes out

~ I have an urge to play a game because my brain gets so fried thanks to work.  Seriously, work is stressful and on my days off I usually play games

~ I don't have the inspiration to work on most art, while inspired to do something completely left field

~ I lose my progress while I am working on it, and get overly frustrated.  In short terms, I don't want to do it if it got ruined

~ I have it drawn, but either not scan it, don't have my tablet, or forget to scan it and see it later as a bad picture

With that, I let you know now; I might not work on the art you ask for.  Please don't bother me about it.  I plan to update my To Do List so you all know what I have in store to work on.  If it's not there, then please don't take it as an offense.  I have tried working on it, but couldn't get the desired result.  Therefore, I probably won't do it.

I know I have a very due piece of work I have promised and I am doing that, but it's taking a lot of planning in between other art.



Edd Gould from Eddsworld

You know that guy from Eddsworld?  He loves coke and doing crazy things with his friends?  Well, that's Edd Gould.  He's a swell man who has a passion for animating, and I enjoy every video he has posted.  They were creative and well thought out.

This man has been fighting cancer for 6 long years.  He kicked it out of his system the first time, but it came back with a vengeance.  He was stuck in the hospital, and made a video letting all of his fans know that he was there to fight cancer once again.  He assured us that he was going to be fine, and even animated new videos, made new comics, and even updated us about his next animation he was working on.  His fans loved him, and were inspired to do things that they wouldn't do all thanks to him.  While he was sick, he was constantly showered with notes and comments from several websites that he made accounts on wishing he was going to get better soon.  We all thought he was okay... until all of a sudden he passed away.  His body was literately shutting down, but his mind fought to it's fullest.

On March 27, Tom and Matt (the 2 friends that were in the animations with him) posted a video announcing the news.  This video was- in my case- nicely made, and they told us what Edd did for his fans.  He turned down so many opportunities, cared about us and only us.  He wanted us happy, and we were happy to see he cared so much.  The time he was in the hospital showed us that, and this whole thing brought me to tears.  I would have never thought that he was going to go.  Even today, 3 weeks later, I would still be suffering and crying when I see a new update or a video dedicated to him. Larger youtubers like Harry Partridge knew him, and they were saddened to see him go.

Needless to say, I am depressed about it, but I do hide it.  I wasn't ready to tell you all how I felt about it, but now that you know how destroyed I am about the news... it's going to... kinda help later.  Below are two videos that were relevant to his passing:

R.I.P Edd Gould (1988-2012) Video

Edd's Eulogy Video

If you don't know him, you should go and see it.  He was one of my all-time favorite animators.



With that, I bid you farewell...

~ Salukichan

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~Clubs~

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